thirty six trips around the sun

Today is my last as a 35 year old.

While I don’t usually get philosophical about birthdays, I would like to reflect on my last rotation around the sun…

This past year has seen a lot of change in my life and realisation of what changes need to be made in order to reach my/our goals.

Jay and I moved from our beloved rented sky-home apartment in Pyrmont in order to knuckle down and save some money for a deposit to buy our own (overly-expensive) Pyrmont apartment! Seeing a financial adviser was a rude shock in my spending habits; and it’s been very difficult and a daily challenge for me to reign in my spending and not have the ‘I deserve it now’ mentality. It’s a work in progress…

My work has been a constant challenge; from coming out of a project which was a solid year on a client site working exclusively for them, to managing a multimillion dollar global project and then having to audit and remediate 4 projects back to back that were off the rails with hostile clients, it’s been very tough. Some days I felt powerful and confident, and others I would duck into the bathrooms and have a cry. Many sleepless nights on deployments or worrying about my workload, but when I sum it all up and take time to reflect, it’s been character building and has provided me with more experience to be better in my career. My career hasn’t taken the path I thought it would when I was starting out, but most days I like what I do and the company which I work for. I did some study too which was hard but rewarding.

My extended family has had a tough year; My cousins lost their Mum, who I hadn’t seen in years, but who I love and respect deeply.
My father-in-law is almost 2 years into battling cancer, which is terminal however he’s going through palliative chemo and it’s still working although there are good and bad days, like all cancer treatments.
My brother ‘walked out’ of rehab 6 months into a 12 month program and I’ve been so angry with him I haven’t spoken to him since February. I just had enough of all of the lies and manipulation. It’s hard because I just want to magically fix his addiction and the bad choices he makes with his life because of it, but I can’t. I can’t continue to bail him out and have my emotions manipulated. I love him deeply but after trying every way to get through to him, my silence is my last resort.
On the upside I have had a few conversations with my estranged father, which have been good. It’s obvious that our relationship will never be the same as it was, he’s such an oddity, but I have completely let go of the anger and hurt I felt and carried around with me for 10+ years. It’s not so much a ‘light at the end of the tunnel’ but rather a ‘soft glow’ that I can see with our future relationship.
I didn’t get to see much of my most darling Mum this year, with her travelling around Australia, but we had a few days here and there which was nice. I miss her terribly and wish she just lived closer dammit.
On the upside, I have grown a lot closer to my sister-in-law this year. It’s always been hard for Jay because he is so much younger than his siblings so it was like they always saw him as “younger” but gradually over time that perception has been changing and this year we’ve had some quality time with one of his sisters and her family and I really love and respect them. As I get older I am starting to appreciate family a bit more.

Jay & I celebrated our 9th wedding anniversary earlier this month. I continue to be in awe of my husband, who is just brilliant, kind, caring, funny, so smart and handsome. We’ve been together 19 years (high-school sweethearts) and he still gives me butterflies. I’m very thankful for him.

The dynamics of many of my friendships changed this year; I made new friends, reconnected with old friends and farewelled some too. One of my best friends said something to me the other day about how some people just come into your life for a finite time where your friendship is intense and has a specific purpose. Afterwards you stay in touch and you’re still friends but the need has been met and the intensity has faded. Other friends are always there, in the background, and you know your love and affection will always be constant no matter the situation. I think it’s true and take comfort in that idea.

This last year my fitness declined a little as different priorities took over, but I recently did the Whole30 which kicked off my desire to make my fitness a priority once again. Im going to do the 12WBT again in the lead up to the New Year; with the goal to drop a few kgs before summer and really just get back into a solid routine. I’m apprehensively excited about it!

I didn’t do much travelling this year; we had a week holiday in Byron Bay in April which was relaxing although the weather was disappointing for a beachside vacation. I took a week off in September just to chill. Jay was at work, so I had some alone time to do day trips out of the city, walk with Harley, see some movies and do some cooking. It was therapeutic.

Last night I celebrated my impending birthday with close friends Janine, Ian, Jared, Pete and of course Jay. We went to a fancy bar for cocktails and then to an even fancier restaurant to dinner. It was so much fun! Here’s a few snaps of our night….

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With all that in mind, it’s been a busy year but a good one!

Here’s to a better 36th trip round the sun!

week in instagram

So the world didn’t end in fire or ice.
On we go for the next 5,125 years.
In comparison here is my minuscule week in Instagram pics.

IMG_20121217_072359 1 | kicking off a week of breakfast green smoothies IMG_20121221_193931 2 | gorgeous Harley boy IMG_20121217_183044 3 | Sportsgirl pretty skull Galaxy Tab cover IMG_20121218_192629 4 | Girls night out – Ems, B & Mands IMG_20121218_192919 5 | Girls night out – Mel, Mich & MelIMG_20121218_090212 (1) 6 | pink caddy @ my mechanics workshop IMG_20121221_192924 7 | Melly & Harley IMG_20121219_220016 8 | cheers! Final Dinner Club of 2012 IMG_20121220_191903 9 | tomato, basil & bocconcini salad @ Balla IMG_20121220_082909 10 | brekkie of champions! green smoothie goodness with the Jacksons after our mid-week sleepoverIMG_20121221_140917 11 | selfie – my new hair colour IMG_20121221_150058 12 | It’s not all for me! Tasked with ensuring we don’t go thirsty in Byron Bay!IMG_20121222_134408 13 | I’m a good girl & Santa delivered something special from Louis Vuitton! IMG_20121222_145103 14 | my man

Happy Weekend Everyone!

creative popcorn | recipes

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Plain popcorn or popcorn garnished with spice mix is one of my favourite low-cal snacks but flavoured popcorn typically isn’t a huge favourite in Australia.

I’ve scoured the interwebs to find some amazing recipes, that while aren’t low in cals, look amazing & fun!

  1. Cat Cora’s Party Mix with cereal, pretzels, peanuts and, of course, popcorn, this classic snack with a spicy twist has something everyone will enjoy. Recipe found via queen Oprah online [here].
  2. Pretty Princess Pink Party Popcorn won’t taste s sugary sweet as it looks. Made with white chocolate & red food colouring its perfect for princesses young & old! Recipe found via Erin Cooks [here].
  3. I don’t think there’s anything better than S’mores Popcorn! Recipe found via Nest of Posies [here].
  4. Sugar & Spice Popcorn gets its name from a hit of cinnamon and nutmeg…delish! Recipe found via Creative Culinary [here].
  5. Here’s something for the health nuts; Popcorn Trail Mix with seeds, nuts & dried fruit. Recipe found via Good Life Eats [here].
  6. A super fun hit of caramel & chocolate with Poppin’ Popcorn Brittle! Recipe found via Ready Set Eat [here].
  7. Fit for royalty this Gold-dusted White Chocolate Popcorn will definitely impress made with cranberries, white chocolate & edible gold dust! Recipe found via Southern Living [here].
  8. For a more decadent caramel popcorn try The Best Nutty Caramel Popcorn. Recipe found via Not Quite Nigella [here].

Time for a movie night, don’t you think!?!?!